Outcast

Tuesday. I'm feeling like an outcast here. It's always been hard to 'gel' in with them. By the way, they also don't give a heck what I've been doing all these while. If they don't care, I shall learn not to care as well. Oh well, it must be the SIGN. No point hanging on to someone that don't appreciate you, your true self.

On same day, I've received a very sad news. It really saddened me so great that my heart ache and my vision went blurry. How can she commented such thing without even knowing what I've been through, the challenges, the difficulties. It's always easier to condemn rather than saying nice words. After so much of sacrifices, to you, they are nothing and worthless. So, I should stop this! Thanks to your cruelty, I've made up my mind without any doubt!

Something I realized, it's true but it's a sad fact as well. 'Fake' people will get more attention, as well as people who are good at talking. I'm nothing near that, so that's why I've been outcast, misjudged and not appreciated. Sad... but that's life. However, I'm still sticking to my true self, one that's realistic and telling the truth. I wear NO mask.

"Never accept words meant to hurt. Turn them back because they are the responsibility of the speaker. When you are caught off guard, hold the emotions in silence for a moment and tell them to be still. It takes longer to forget than it does to forgive – and time heals when we give it the power."
- Joyce Sequichie Hifler (author, columnist, speaker and philosopher)

Lesson learnt

Two days had passed, yet I'm still feeling crappy and uneasy. The conversation we had really making me feeling stupid! I must learn NOT to trust people so easily and DON'T be so honest! You didn't speak to me afterward, making me feeling even crappier and stupider! Haih, what to do, what has been said is said, what has been done is done, I can't turn things around. What I can do is to be more careful in future. YES! Be more careful! I really MUST remind myself this. And to you, thank you for making me feeling stupid, uneasy and crappy! You've made me learned a lesson.

I also need to remind myself this:
IGNORE + ZEN = PEACE OF MIND

I need to practice this in order to go through rough days ahead. Good luck to me!

2011 and me

Twenty eleven...

1. I'm hitting the BIG 3
2. I'm not the type of writing down a list of what I want to do, but don't know why I feel that I have to do this. Is it because I'm already 30?
3. Proud owner of Canon EOS 60D, yahoooooooo! So happy hubby also interested (shared prop) and it's good we can do things that we enjoy together-gether
4. To continue and enhance my skills in flowers arrangement
5. Learn new skill – photography for the soul
6. Learn new skill – baking especially bread! Ohh I love bread. Bread for the soul
7. Backpacking to Australia, before I become a mom :)

* to be continued...*

et cetera, why?

et cetera will be my second blog after think flowers. I'm not a hardcore blogger, yet I'm slowly finding comfort in blogging *deep breathing*. I feel that I need a place where I can share my thoughts, share my likes (besides flowers), vent my disappointment etc, thus the name et cetera. Sometimes, writing down is so much relieving rather than saying out loud.

11 days into new year, the days seem to pass by so slowly for me. Maybe because I've been so tired since last year that I no longer have the momentum to push forward. Lots that I've been through (@ work), I wonder how I survived last year! I can't wait for my little break in early February, where hubby and I are going to spend our quality time together, celebrating our postponed 1st year wedding anniversary + 2nd year ROM anniversary. We're so gonna bringing wine with us! Really looking forward to that. February February!! Please come soon!!