Outcast

Tuesday. I'm feeling like an outcast here. It's always been hard to 'gel' in with them. By the way, they also don't give a heck what I've been doing all these while. If they don't care, I shall learn not to care as well. Oh well, it must be the SIGN. No point hanging on to someone that don't appreciate you, your true self.

On same day, I've received a very sad news. It really saddened me so great that my heart ache and my vision went blurry. How can she commented such thing without even knowing what I've been through, the challenges, the difficulties. It's always easier to condemn rather than saying nice words. After so much of sacrifices, to you, they are nothing and worthless. So, I should stop this! Thanks to your cruelty, I've made up my mind without any doubt!

Something I realized, it's true but it's a sad fact as well. 'Fake' people will get more attention, as well as people who are good at talking. I'm nothing near that, so that's why I've been outcast, misjudged and not appreciated. Sad... but that's life. However, I'm still sticking to my true self, one that's realistic and telling the truth. I wear NO mask.

"Never accept words meant to hurt. Turn them back because they are the responsibility of the speaker. When you are caught off guard, hold the emotions in silence for a moment and tell them to be still. It takes longer to forget than it does to forgive – and time heals when we give it the power."
- Joyce Sequichie Hifler (author, columnist, speaker and philosopher)

Lesson learnt

Two days had passed, yet I'm still feeling crappy and uneasy. The conversation we had really making me feeling stupid! I must learn NOT to trust people so easily and DON'T be so honest! You didn't speak to me afterward, making me feeling even crappier and stupider! Haih, what to do, what has been said is said, what has been done is done, I can't turn things around. What I can do is to be more careful in future. YES! Be more careful! I really MUST remind myself this. And to you, thank you for making me feeling stupid, uneasy and crappy! You've made me learned a lesson.

I also need to remind myself this:
IGNORE + ZEN = PEACE OF MIND

I need to practice this in order to go through rough days ahead. Good luck to me!